I wish I have a faith in me and my life.

The lack of faith and my life causes the occasional thinking about ...

Sometimes, I wish I could resemble someone who have a strong fatih through a religion even thouh I deny secular religins and I know I will not have a secular religion.
But, I still wish I have confidence in me and my life throgh unwavering faith and love in me and my life. I am sure I will be willing to give or share what I can afford to with others, I know I am not a greesy person.
But, first thing should come first, what faith shoul I have in my life, what purpose should I have in my life.
I am sad when I fell my soul is becoming dull as I do not dance anymore.
Even thouugh I have a vague idea that I am supposed to contrubute to ecucation and students by becoming a excellent educator, I am sad because I feel like I am losing my sensitivity or soul to communicate with inside of me.
That is why I need a unwavering faith, I shoul not forget a promise with myself,
I promise, I will do it for you.
I do not want to get fat and I do not want to lose physical strength I do not want to lose my sensitively to my soul. I am sad because I feel like I am losing day by day them. Work hard, but find a way not to lose them.